Holly caught me by surprise a little at bedtime tonight. We had taken her to a local music festival and she’d really enjoyed the music. Then it was a late night and as I tucked her in she said “I don’t ever want you or Daddy to die Mummy”. I explained that we won’t die for a long, long, long, long, long time. She went on to say that she feels very sad and that she really misses Oscar. I said that I felt the same. Then she said: “I feel sad all the time. Even when I am happy and doing fun things I am sad”. Even when it is my birthday I will be sad”.  It was such a poignant conversation as that is how David and I feel too.